It’s Been One Year…

365 days and 100 posts.

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One year ago today, I picked up a pen and started writing down the story of how I came to pick up a pen in the first place.  It’s crazy how much (and how little) can happen in a year’s time.

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I was working at a hair salon last October, frustrated that I couldn’t pay my bills and hating how stressed out every day at work made me.  I had fallen in love with Ben Harris, the character I dreamed up to fall in love with my fictional equivalent, Abigail Bronsen.  I had never sent out a query letter and I had no idea how self-esteem crushing writing one could be.

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In November, I attempted my first NANO novel, which I called Anita’s Dream Diary.  There were certain things about ADD that I loved- the first chapter contained a rather hysterical (I think) suicide attempt- but as I kept writing, I just realized the entire style of the book wasn’t suited to my voice.  It was an interesting lesson in learning to let go when things aren’t working.  I started writing The Death Effect on Thanksgiving Day and I didn’t “win” NANO, but I’m still glad I attempted it.

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December was a big month.  I gave my boss notice and started looking for other jobs.  I knew that I was never going to be happy working as a hair salon receptionist.  So I moved on.  And on January 20th I started my new job.  As a receptionist at an orthodontist’s office.  Okay, so I’m still a receptionist, but the great thing about working at the ortho is that when I leave work- I’m done with that job.  I don’t have to worry that someone is going to call and ask me to work their shift or about the crazy guest that didn’t like her hair.  I’m not on-call 24/7.

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I went on a couple of dates in February!  It didn’t end in a love connection, but it felt good to get out there and feel some butterflies and wonder where it was going.  I hadn’t been on a date in seven years, so even being asked out boosted my confidence!

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March and April were wedding months for me.  I met with a lot of brides, worked a couple of weddings, and started planning with a full-service couple.  I really really love being a wedding coordinator.  I cannot wait until that grand day when I’ll get to do it full time.  I really hope it happens soon. I know that whenever I’m able to quit my day job to do weddings full time, I’ll be able to put a lot more of my free time into 1- writing and 2- having a social life!

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Disney World and all of it’s fantubulousness happened in May.  It was a much-much-much needed vacation.  I really needed to see my friend, Brooke, and I really needed to have some fun and some alone time with my writing.  I got all three things.  And my adorable niece, Gracyn, was born on May 24.  She is one of the happiest things in my life right now.  She’s not my actual niece, but her mother and I have been friends since first grade!

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I turned 26 in June.  If it’s is possible, I think turning 26 was more difficult than turning 25.  I had my book to focus on on my twenty-fifth birthday.  On my twenty-sixth, all I had to focus on was the fact that I was twenty-six!  I realize I’m not old.  I realize I’m still young.  But I am not living like a 26-year old.  I’m a nomad.  I don’t have a real home.  I have three jobs.  I’ve never had a relationship.  I wonder what’s wrong with me that at 26 I’m not more grounded.  Some people would be happy with leading this kind of existence.  I am just not one of those people.  I like order and stability.  I can’t understand what’s been keeping me from living the life I want.

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A client was unhappy with me in July.  I can’t explain how uncomfortable and upset that makes me.  I want to make everyone happy.  I am sickeningly accommodating of people, especially my clients.  It keeps me up at night when someone is angry at me.  But I had to push through it, because I kept getting prospective clients and I still had other weddings to plan and coordinate.  It wasn’t easy for me.  And I still think about it sometimes on my long commutes to and from work.  I hate that I can’t get over things like that.

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The Hamm family took a trip to visit more of the Hamms in August.  We spent a long weekend with my grandparents in Buffalo. It was another much needed vacation.  My really good friends Ashley and Charles moved to Burlington with beautiful Gracyn around the same time.  I’m soooooo happy I finally have close  friends nearby.  And that I don’t have to spend all my weekends alone in my bedroom!

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September and October have been wedding-crazy-busy again!  As you can see, the year started with writing and it pretty much fazed out and into wedding work.  I wish I had an extra twelve hours every day so that I could focus equally on both my loves.  Maybe one day I’ll be able to.  I miss writing.  I can’t remember the last time I sat and wrote anything new.  I’ve been slowly editing Twenty-Five for the past month, but haven’t picked up a pen and written anything fresh.

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So that’s where I am, on this, the one-year anniversary and one-hundredth post of my blog.  I hope I’ll have another eventful year.  I hope I’ll grow and maybe have another finished book by the time October 15, 2011 comes around.  Maybe I’ll be in love.  Maybe I’ll be living on my own.  Or maybe I’ll have learned to start living in the moment and not looking to the future.  Who knows.  But I hope you’ll stay along for the ride.

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Quick reminder- I’ll start posting my book chapter by chapter on Sunday.  Please, if you are a regular reader, but have never commented- let me know how you like it!  And share it with everyone you know.  Especially if you know any literary agents or publishers 🙂

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And thank you so much for reading, for following this journey I’m taking to become a real writer.  I appreciate it more than I can say.

19 thoughts on “It’s Been One Year…

  1. Rach, congrats on making it a year and your awesome numbers! I only have a couple days till I’m at a year and I have no where near your views and only half your posts. So you obviously have a readership that is interested in seeing you succeed. You’ve accomplished more than a lot of other writers that never finish that first novel and you’ve done it while working 3 jobs!

    🙂 Ang

  2. Good for you, Rach!! Congrats on your successes. 🙂 (I can’t believe it’s been a whole year. Time flies…)

    – Jill

      1. You finished a novel, queried a novel, and set your cap to editing a novel. And you’re a college graduate! That’s far more than I’ve done! 🙂

      2. haha. “queried” doesn’t really apply to the 13 letters I sent out. Testing the waters is more like it! And I accomplished the college graduate thing a while ago, but if you want to call those successes, than I’ll stop arguing and just say Thanks!

  3. Great post. It seems that through the ups and downs of life as it happens you have manage to still reflect on what is important to you instead of dwelling on the negative things that most normally dwell on (myself included). Just hang in there. I am sure you will obtain all you desire in life. It’s just sometimes we have to take a longer journey than we wish in order to get to where we are suppose to be.

  4. Happy Anniversary Rach!!! 🙂

    I certainly think a lot has happened in your year, and I was just saying today that I hope I can stop being disappointed in myself when work is crazy with 12-hours a day including commute, and all but no time to write…it’s hard to juggle, so these days I appreciate any time I get to write…wishing you a great year coming up! 😀

    xo

    1. Thanks Romi! I have to sincerely believe that one day we’ll both be able to write full time and say “screw you” to the rest of the world. But until that day comes, we’ll keep plugging away. doing what we have to do.

  5. Happy Anniversary!

    Sounds like you accomplished a lot this year. Switching jobs, planning weddings, having fun. I don’t know when you sleep with all the work you do though. I hope next year is even better for you!

  6. Hi Rachel,
    I cannot trace back how I came across your novel but I finished the whole twelve chapters in one sitting and subscribed to it via email for fear that I might lose touch with you. I never thought I would be reading a love story again after the last one …. let me think, 34 years ago?! ha ha ha. Keep it up!

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