Brooke had to work on Friday during the day, so I got to sleep in! And when I did finally get up, I immediately put on my brand new bathing suit (P.S. I haven’t worn a bathing suit in over 4 years. Luckily, it was not as traumatic as I expected because no one saw me in it except for Brooke and her roommate later in the day) and went out to the pool.
In Florida, everyone has a pool in their backyard. Literally.
I got in the pool and swam around for about five minutes. It was nice, but swimming alone really isn’t that much fun, so I got out and dried off by laying in the sun for a little bit. Then the main event. I spent the next three or four hours at my laptop, just typing and editing and not worrying at all about work life. I was completely immersed in The Death Effect and the world of my imagination. It was so peaceful, so nice, so incredibly relaxing. I really needed it.
On Friday night Brooke, her boyfriend Danny, and I went to their stem church for Bible study of sorts. I had a good time. Their friends were welcoming, we had Papa John’s pizza (mmm… delicious. I used to dislike it, but it has grown on me), and then discussed the idea of God’s plan and the goal of accepting God’s plan and living in the moment rather than living for the future.
I completely live for the future. I wish I didn’t. And I’m trying harder not to. That’s partly what this blog is for. It’s why I switched jobs in January. And it’s why I write for me and haven’t really been freaking out about the fact that I haven’t had time to search for an agent. But the truth is, I’ve always waited for that future moment when my life “will start.” You know what I mean. That time when I’m in the career I want, in love with the man I want, happy with the family I want, out of the debt I have now. It’s always ahead of me. I’m always stretching my hand out trying to grasp it, inevitably falling short.
But my trip to Orlando was living in the moment. Not caring how it would affect my bank account, only caring how it would affect my happiness NOW. And I’m so happy I went.
Saturday, I repeated Friday morning/afternoon- working a lot on The Death Effect, but not really working on it. I read through everything I have written so far, edited a few things, and made sure it was up-to-date on TNBW. Again, a completely relaxing, no-obligations day. I loved it.
Saturday night- we went to Disney…